BB da devilz

No, I Don't hate you

2006-07-07T19:29:00.000+10:00

U asked me if I hate u, and I answered no... to hate a person is so suffering and I don't want to get suffer because of hating u... what's the point of hating a person? there's no advantages at all...

anyway still feeling good of still able to talk to u...

Nothing to be put as title

2006-07-01T08:59:00.000+10:00

Hmmm… been abandoned this blog for sometimes again… initially this blog was just a blog for me to express myself well to someone in my life… or maybe it can be a blog to test things out… unfortunately… things changing and keep changing… been heartbroken… been ups and downs in dealing with this person… lately I feel a bit disappointed as well… but all I could do is stay cool… nothing much I could do anymore… internet speed was so slow and so I couldn’t online too much and got no time to talk to him for like a week plus? Whatever is it as long as he is happy anything will be fine..

Am still here if you need someone to talk to… alright… another update for this blog again…

No title

2006-06-17T12:53:00.000+10:00

From the happy mode in the beginning to more and more serious and hectic ways now... I don't know why things become like that but seems like been through something eh? hehe..

anyway post 35 now... time flies... it's weekend again... wish u have a great weekend..

Sakurairo maukoro

2006-06-15T19:10:00.000+10:00

Sakurairo maukoro, watashi wa hitori
Osae kirenu mune ni tachi tsuku shiteta

Wakabairo moyureba omoi afurete
Subete wo miushinai anata he nagareta

Meguru kigi tachi dakega
Futari wo miteita no
Hito dokoro ni wa todomare nai to
Sotto oshie nagara

Karehairo someteku anata no tonari
Utsurui yuku hibi ga ai he to kawaru no

Douka kigi tachi dake wa
Kono omoi wo mamotte
Mou ichido dake futari no uede
Sotto ha wo yurashite

Yagate toki wa futari wo
Doko he yakonde yuku no
Tada hitotsu dake tashikana ima wo
Sotto dakishimeteita

Yuki keshou madoe wa omoi hagurete
Ashiato mo keshiteku otonaki itazura

Douka kigi tachi dake wa
Kono omoi wo mamotte
“Eien” no naka futari todomete
Koko ni iki tsudukete

Meguru kigi tachi dakega
Futari wo miteita no
Hito dokoro ni wa todomare nai to
Sotto oshie nagara

Sakurairo maukoro, watashi wa hitori
Anata he no omoi wo kamishimeta mama

p/s: another Japanese song that U've send to me... this time U didn't dedicate this song to me and I guess is not suitable to dedicate? :) anyway it's a nice song... I love this song... not because u send to me but because of Mika Nakashima...

Sorry

2006-06-13T19:59:00.000+10:00

I somehow there is still something we haven’t be frank to each other… yes I do love to think and I love to think A LOT… well… all the hectic days are enough to kill me… yes too many things happened… u, family, friends… workload getting heavier as well…

Anyway sorry for everything…

U drive me insane

2006-06-12T20:07:00.000+10:00

the more I say the more I feel like my words gone with the wind

the more I care the more I feel the silly deep inside me

the more I feel the more it drives me insane

if you really want to tell me you would have to tell me... if you really care for me you would have just behave in a proper way...

thanks for driving me insane!

Think twice please

2006-06-11T11:29:00.000+10:00

Still cant believe you asked me such question yesterday... I didn't know my first reaction would be frustrated... I felt frustrated because I don't know how to advice you on that...I try to chill myself think all over again... Finally I still can't get any better and left you that note...

The time when I see your replied saying You going to go on your plan...it's just like heartbroken... I have no idea why, but I really hope you'll think wisely...

bo song

2006-06-08T22:07:00.000+10:00

I know even u say no harm to u also but still? I feel bo song lor hehe... I know I am busybody but anyhow just bo song la... sometimes the creativity meant to be unique... not meant to be copy one... so yeah I am still happy with yours :P

Thank You

2006-06-07T21:37:00.000+10:00

once again... Thanks a lot... hehe... wonder how many times of thank you have I said to u? LOL...

L.O.V.E

2006-06-04T20:26:00.000+10:00

on your speaker
click on the play button
start commenting how bad my voice is LOL

Nice one

2006-06-04T18:20:00.000+10:00

When I woke up the first thing I did is open the song u send to me LOL... well... I on for my wifey also... :P she said she will sing for me too :)... anyway thanks for that... u really sing well... looking forward to upload mine soon LOL...

U pissed me off for the first time!

2006-06-04T00:24:00.000+10:00

I don't know I should be angry or not! U tell me! Don't take my trust for granted! hmph!

Post num 25

2006-06-03T13:39:00.000+10:00

nothing special just want to get rid of number 24 LOL... anyway have a nice weekend :P

The Fact

2006-06-03T04:12:00.000+10:00

it might be u.. ?? hehe My instinct tell me it's not :P... oh well... unless my instinct is wrong... only you know the answer... not going to think that far because it is impossible for me to have that happen at the moment LOL... see? I am not living in denials hahaha

Freezing and the cold u

2006-06-01T04:38:00.000+10:00

The weather here is freezing... it's only 5 degrees out there... when I message you just now U r just as cold as the weather out there...

I'm sensitive or is really so? heh... no idea... anyway rest well in this coming weekend... it's not good for u to stay up late everyday... take care...

Do I consider heartbroken?

2006-05-31T03:45:00.000+10:00

No matter how things go how busy I am I will think and think… yeah killed some brain cells hehe… we haven’t been really talking lately though… when you are busy I am free when I am free you are busy hehe…

So, am suppose to kick my @ss to get prepare for work… but I am still here typing out because I feel like the heart drop into the cliff hehe… when you asked “hey wats ur secret blog link again ar?” I was like hmmm… I should tell you again or not? Sigh…

Anyway nothing much to update at the moment… oh well… I can just feel your feelings without any doubts… not sure what happened but I hope you’ll be fine soon…

Weekend

2006-05-27T08:56:00.000+10:00

It’s weekend again… maybe I will be really free in weekend so I will miss you more than usual hehe… anyway today is different because the miss is not longer like last time… this miss is more to think about your feelings hehe…

There you go deep inside the heart hiding the little thing just for a special person in my life…

Muacks

2006-05-25T17:33:00.000+10:00

And so… we had open chat again… I feel glad at least I get all the answer that I know but not sure before… see? I do understand exactly what is happening haha… not trying to take control of stuffs… but I will never try to hide anything that is being felt by me…

Phew… finally get things talked… and yeah I do feel a lot better… there are many things in life that we can see, we can feel, we can smell, we can know but we can’t own it… same goes with this feeling…

Nothing to regret about or nothing to think about… as long as we never break each other’s heart and understand each other… thank you very much for entering my life LOL…

Seems like a speech eh? Nah is not a speech but an expression from deep inside my heart… once again muacks :P

I know I shouldn't have do it again

2006-05-23T19:51:00.000+10:00

I know deep in my heart I don’t feel like doing anything, but I just can’t be irresponsible by ignoring all my work because of my uncontrolled emotional… so yeah, been entertaining people the whole day today…

Finally got myself settled down, mum called and spoke to sis as well… my kai yeah told my mum about u.. hehe… mum asked how issit and I told her nothing work out… she told me not to do stupid things LOL…

Actually I consider myself lucky as in knowing so many friends… getting so much privilege in life and stuffs… am wondering who am I in my past life… I must be do a lot of good thing in past life so I can kind of receive all the good things in this life LOL… oh well is just crapping… ignore me if is crapping too much…

Anyway, been repeating endless story… I wouldn’t want to change and I wish to stick to listen to this song… non stop… right… that’s it for today… I can’t stop missing you… I know I shouldn't have do it again... but... sorry...

Finally

2006-05-22T22:10:00.000+10:00

Finally…

I break down into tears… all I could do is hiding my tears with hehe, haha, :P :)…. I’m clueless on words anymore… no matter how tough it is, I went through the tougher part… I should be okay… is just emotionally disturbed at the moment…

As I always believe nothing is perfect in the world… as I describe life in Tankle’s page… life is just like a dishes… we choose what ingredient we want to put in… happiness? Sadness? Madness? Siaoness? Boringness? Whateverness?

Yeah the future and the choice is in our hands…

What I predict is happening

2006-05-22T19:01:00.000+10:00

Talk to someone I admire today LOL… so yeah… is so transparent… every single word… every single feeling… nothing really fake at all…

I think what I predicted last night is happening at the moment… no wonder I will cry last night hahaha… I am really happy now… as in things consider sort out… besides that, there are lots of things in life to be decided… tough decisions…

Option 1? Option 2? Option 3? Still undecided LOL… maybe I feel like taking my time to choose as they are important part of my life… asked some of the opinions… most of them asked me to do the option 1…

Don’t want to think la… anyway admire a person is a not a criminal right? Hehe… I can finally let go Ian and fill U in my mind LOL...

:'(

2006-05-21T23:35:00.000+10:00

Another 27 minutes will be a brand new day... today is the first time I feel like :'( after missing u for so long...

nothing much to say besides (sabisii) good night...

Post num 15

2006-05-21T10:22:00.000+10:00

Post number 15 from me to you...

Good morning baby!!! Yeah just come here to blog before I got myself prepare to go out… as usual… blogging here to express how much I miss you and also get rid the number 14 LOL… this is the 15th post in this blog… time flies eh?

Miss me or not? LOL (don’t want the answer of you say leh?) is like not sincere to answer me :(… if you miss me then tell me lor… if yo don’t miss me also I can’t force you to miss me also right? Hmmm so yeah theory of miss me is here LOL… not going to type an essay about that… all I know is if you tell me you miss of course I will feel sweet and be happy but if is not of course I will be a bit upset but not going to be angry or whatever over :P…

Listening to “endless story” :P… is really a nice song to listen… hmmm it’s 10.18am now… I better off soon ad got myself out and come back before it’s dark at night… tata for now… will be missing u :P…. good morning, muacks *^_^*

Nite Nite for you

2006-05-21T06:01:00.000+10:00

It is so fun to tease u LOL… I was suppose to be in bed now but I am still stuck here :(… going to do something for my hair tomorrow… so yeah got few hours sleep…

Is freezing now :(…. My legs are so cold… brrrrrrr…. Miss miss you :P nite nite

I think about you

2006-05-20T15:32:00.000+10:00

Scond song dedicated to you...I think about you...

I oughta be workin - but I cant concentrate
I oughta be sleepin - steada stayin up late
When I oughta be doing all the things I should do
I think about you
I oughta be writin - but I cant find the song
Just sittin here driftin - driftin along
Theres only one thing that I wanna do
And thats think about you

I think about you - I cant get no rest
I think about you - there aint no one else
Its all I can do - I cant help myself
Ya - I think about you

I could go cruisin - but Ive had enough
I could go drinkin - but I cant stand the stuff
It just dont do me like it used ta do
Id rather think about you

I think about you - I cant get no rest
I think about you - there aint no one else
Its all I can do - I cant help myself
Ya - I think about you

When you love someone

2006-05-20T15:22:00.000+10:00

What is actually admiring someone? Heh… not like nor love? How could I express that feeling eh? Anyway the feeling is just like when you love someone… the first song dedicate from me to you…

When you love someone – Bryan Adams
When you love someone - youll do anything
Youll do all the crazy things that you cant explain
Youll shoot the moon - put out the sun
When you love someone

Youll deny the truth - believe a lie
Therell be times that youll believe you can really fly
But your lonely nights - have just begun
When you love someone

When you love someone - youll feel it deep inside
And nothin else can ever change your mind
When you want someone - when you need someone
When you love someone...

When you love someone - youll sacrifice
Youd give it everything you got and you wont think twice
Youd risk it all - no matter what may come
When you love someone
Youll shoot the moon - put out the sun
When you love someone

Don't know Why

2006-05-20T11:44:00.000+10:00

No idea why when I first woke up this morning you are the first one appear in my mind... Since I know you will not be free yesterday night, I've spend my night in Chelry's house... is just somewhere near my house too, but she is living right opposite the beach... is a nice place to live, when tsunami happen the first place to die in LOL.. (that's what she told me, crap!)

Told her about you hehe, she said is nice to admiring someone, but make sure I am not falling too deeply or else I might get myself into trouble hehe... I take it as an advise for me...

SO yeah... today is saturday... Wish U have a nice weekend...

Thanks for thinking of me

2006-05-18T18:20:00.000+10:00

Out of sudden you told me u like thinking of me and you told me you are happy thinking of me… hehe… of course I am happy for that… so yeah… heart still beating fast… I felt I am in love but I am nervous hehe…

Anyway thanks for thinking of me muacks :P

Endless story

2006-05-17T19:13:00.000+10:00

If you haven’t changed your mind
Then I want you by my side Tonight

I’m so tired of always having to bluff
Everytime I think about you baby, I feel so young
If I could just tell you I miss you
It’s so hard to say I’m sorry

You see, I want to sing this song, not for just anyone
but just for you
An ENDLESS STORY that keeps on shining
Always, I wanna show you, forever and ever

Memories of our time together
this way, they don’t go away

Once I knew that the warmth between us had disappeared,
gentle tears started to spread over my chest
This is not where it ends, I’m missing you
please don’t let go of my hand

You see, I wish I could sing this song, just for you
just one more time
An ENDLESS STORY of undying love
tell me why, please tell me, forever and ever

You see, I want to sing this song, not for just anyone
but just for you
An ENDLESS STORY that keeps on shining
Always, I wanna show you, forever and ever

You see, I wish I could sing this song, just for you
just one more time
An ENDLESS STORY of undying love
tell me why, please tell me, forever and ever

heh... U send me this song and U told me is dedicated to me... but yeah... I do love this song before u told me u dedicated to me... anyway thanks a lot!!! appreciate that... anyway just want to post it out here because this is the first song or maybe is the one and only song u dedicate for me LOL...

this is the translate lyrics...

If you haven’t changed your mind
Soba ni ite hoshii yo Tonight

Tsuyogaru koto ni tsukareta no
Osana sugita no Everytime I think about you baby
Ima nara ieru I miss you
It’s so hard to say I’m sorry

Tatoeba dare ka no tame ja naku anata no tame ni
Utaitai kono uta wo
Owara nai story tsuduku kono kagayaki ni
Always tsutaetai zutto eien ni

Memories of our time together
Kesa nai de kono mama don’t go away

Atatakaku toke dashite tashikameru no
Yasashisa no shizuku kono mune ni hirogatteku
Setsu nai hodo ni I’m missing you
Kasaneta te hanasa naide

Tatoeba kanau nara mou ichido anata no tame ni
Utai tai kono uta wo
Owara nai story taemanai itoshisa de
tell me why oshiete yo zutto eien ni

Tatoeba dare ka no tame ja naku anata no tame ni
Utaitai kono uta wo
Owara nai story tsuduku kono kagayaki ni
Always tsutaetai zutto eien ni

Tatoeba kanau nara mou ichido anata no tame ni
Utai tai kono uta wo
Owara nai story taemanai itoshisa de
tell me why oshiete yo zutto eien ni

Wednesday blog

2006-05-17T17:10:00.000+10:00

Been using BBdadevilz this nick at work hahaha... all of the colleague trying their best to create a happy environment since we were so busy lately... besides that manager had been grumpy today too...

So yeah... got myself a nick in work now LOL... they called me baby though LOL... what to do? youngest in the workplace yet second highest position LOL... told my manager about someone I admire LOL... today he asked me why do I admire that person...

I said to him no point to list them out if we can list them out, it might not be the feeling of admiring anymore... hehe... anyway I think I am just crapping here... gonna do my paperwork soon and still waiting for the deli wings form Pizza Hut hehe :P

oh yeah.. if you happen to see the post in my blog... there is nothing to do with u at all... isjust the inspiration to write it out hehe...

Missing you

2006-05-15T15:50:00.000+10:00

even though I got to talk to you this morning.. but yeah... kind of missing you... Why do i have to fell for you? heh... Is just like a dream and I hope I will not wake up from this dream hehe...

no matter what I wish you and her would work out something better... I'm still willing to be a listener, all I know is my bad to be the third party out of sudden... sorry to stir in your life...

anyway wish you are doing well...

Sneak in silently

2006-05-14T11:40:00.000+10:00

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shhhh... Slowly sneak in to blog so I will not wake u up LOL... good morning! another brand new day! today is mummy's day! I wish u have a great time to spend with mummy and hopefully all the mummy in the world will be happy ever after LOL... (sounds like those fairy tales ending pulak) bluerk!

no matter what... going to wash my dishes... then will take shower and hopefully when I finish all those things U will be awake :P

Miss miss you

2006-05-14T06:46:00.000+10:00

purpsoely come to blog maybe u will read it when u wake up later :P... just want to tell u am missing u now :P... we have had a nice talk just now...

anyway... another reason is I dun like num 4 and I have 4 posting before this... so just want to get rid of that num 4 LOL... silly eh?

so yeah... miss u... muacks!

Somebody

2006-05-14T01:52:00.000+10:00

Somebody right… asking me the question that he knows the answer alde hehe… and somebody told me he must be dreaming LOL… nono you are not dreaming :P…

So.. been sleeping too much and now have to stay up so late :(…

Devilz expression

2006-05-13T21:42:00.000+10:00

Hmmm okay… so what should it type in here? Keep this as secret page or??? LOL… so yeah was admiring someone…with his talent and true self… ops feeling sleepy at the moment…

I think the sleeping devil is dragging me away from my comp now hahaha… gone for now till the angel save me away… :P

Second post

2006-05-13T21:21:00.000+10:00

So yeah this suppose to be my sub blog hehe… just playing around while I am too free to do anything else… come across to have such devilz mode LOL… so got my blog title as BB da devilz…

Thanks to someone for da idea LOL… yeah devilz in the house!!! Nyiak nyiak LOL… or I should type ngek ngek more like devilz eh? Hahahaha….

Ops sounds like I am entertaining myself :P… rite… there you go second post of my new blog…

BB da devilz!

2006-05-13T21:12:00.000+10:00

this is just a blog for testing out :P